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2011-02-03T21:30:00.001-08:00

I MUST BE ABOUT ONE OF THE MOST UNLUCKIEST PEOPLE ON EARTH..
IN THE UNIVERSE, OF THE MILKYWAY...
So nvm that i lost my phone AGAIN.
I came home and finally decided to reformat my laptop
thats been giving me problems because i didnt have my phone to go on facebook or
do stuff on the internet.
So i reformat, and it works perfectly fine for l i t e r a l l y a day,
and the next morning something is wrong with the charger as i was watching
how i met your mother.
I got frustrated and shoved the charger in the laptop and in turn broke
the little thingamabob in the laptop that charges the laptop.
So basically i got cut off all communication to the world.
I would buy a new phone if i didnt buy one three months ago.
Even i feel like i should punish myself and buy a phone a little later.
I on all honestly feel like i deserve this.
As for the laptop, its an entirely different story.
This laptop is the best i've ever had but it always gives me problems.
I know it is my fault that i never turn it off and it overheats and shuts off but omfg.
I've had enough.
Which is why im thinking of buying a Macbook because they dont dispense heat out
or i dont know how they do it but you dont hear a fan permanently trying to
cool the laptop down.
But thennn i REALLYYY want to get the Vaio laptops.
Theyre SOOO pretty! they come in like a million colors and even if i wanted to
get just the grey ones, theyre like so tech looking.
Macbooks are getting a little to cliche. i dont like.
But yeah thats my rantering and venting my frustration on the keyboard.

Next, i had a pretty awesome birthday.
It defnitely couldve been if we went snowboarding but it was such a hassle to plan.
But we might go next time.
HOPEFULLY!
Nonetheless i had fun with my friends and thats all that matters:D

Im reading the "the girl with the dragon tattoo "series.
Im done with that one and im on the the girl who played with fire.
I love these books!
But anyway thats it for now,
im a little paranoid using the ccomputer at my moms church because it feels weird..
foreign.
loll alrighty bye!

2011-01-03T22:03:00.000-08:00

ahh....cramps cramps cramps..

i hate period.

lol

hmm i reaaallly want to watch a movie right now but

my laptop freakin crashed.

i really dont understand whfrdsjk is wrong with it.

i guess all the dropping and spilling liquid on it is slowly getting to it. lol

about time.

anyways...so ive been on facebook the past hour on my phone

because im that bored and liked about everyones status on accident because my touch screen is that crazy.

got sick of facebook thought of what to do and decided to blogl.

oh how much has changed over the years....

i actually really do not know.

as for me, i think im still the same old goofy me.

why am i so goofy? lol idk im so weird.

i like the weirdest things and say the weirdest things

and act the weirdest way.

iand i think its so funny..until i see people looking at me like

w,t,freak....that girl is fuckingg weird.

lol crackss me up.

one thing has changed for sure.

i need to lose some major weight. cant remember the last time

i weighed myself. running away from the scary reality that i might...

i just might be....

obese??exclaimation mark.

time to start running my ass off.

im reeaaallly bored..

i want to watch five hundred days of summer.

it is an awesome movie and i think everyone should watch it

around five times in their lifetime. that would be barely enough.

and ive beeen wanting to watch black swan.

its about a ballet daner.

hmm..ballet.

something i have not been in touch with physically or mentally

for like years.

damn..no wonder i got fat. sheeesh.

cutting down on the carbs from tomorrow.

no more hot cheetos, muffins. pringles and mofuggin ricee.

ok im writing longassboringlameuniterestingunreadnoonecares posts again.

pulling my fingers away from the keypad.

tata

2010-12-31T10:11:00.000-08:00

hellooo to this dead blog.

this is going to be yet another boring post,

perhaps even more boring because im doing this on

my phone and it seems i cant capitalize or put certain punctuations like the exclaimation

mark which i often like to abuse. makes me feel handicapped..

well yesss this is going be another one of those lame new year posts. haha

i cant believe how fast time is flying.

cant believe im turning twenty this year.

thats d i g u s t i n g.

but i guess twentyone will be fun.

people say nineteen and twenty are the most useless age. true story..

it regrets me to say that this year is a blur, consisting of

mostly drunken unsober nights.

simply put, next year i will do my best at things other than drinking and bp.lol

like school..work and being nice to my awesome familiaa.

soo...i will go reflect on myself and get back to you.

yayy for nye breakfasttttt.

2010-11-04T23:42:00.000-07:00

I lost my phone:(
This day was bounddd to arrive and it has.
fml, more than it being a waste of money im just reallyyy sad.
I dont know why but i really have this connection with my electronics.
Like when my laptop broke down and the technician told me it couldnt be fixed,
i just felt SO SAD.
And now i lost my phone i named Vania from gossip girl.
It feels like i lost a pet or something.
Im sorry Vania, i put you through so much shit..
I left you in water for an hour and yet you still pulled through from it.
But now i lost you-_-
If someone picked you up and uses you.....just remember..
i was your first owner and no one loves you like i did:(

Sigh...Im gonna get a new one soon.
Im defintely gonna get the same phone but just know, no one will replace you!
So sad...

On a better note, i just got my nails and toes done.
The owner was too cute and she was Chinese! haha cutiee.

2010-10-02T20:28:00.001-07:00

Home on a saturday night??

Yup, im home on a saturday night.
Feels weird but kinda good:)
Its partly because i got into trouble again for coming home at like 5
on a thursday night so i kinda wanna stay home to please my mom.
She was pissed because i didnt pick up my phone and she
was up all night worried.
Also, nothing seems to be happening today.
So im just munching away on my japanese crackers and blogging and listening to drake.

Oh i got my first ticket couple days ago.
I got flashed for running a red light and it came in the mail.
...$466. REALLY??
Scam..

Ahh im so hungryyy i cant wait for the next gossip girl and desp housewives episode!
Gonna watch modern family im so-0o-oewpgkfaz boredddd.

2010-08-06T22:35:00.000-07:00

Getting a haircut tomr finally.
My hairs so gross.
But i havent dyed it for a while and its finally starting to get healthier!

My phones been turned off for 3 days now cuz i lost my charger.
Feels weirddd, feels like i cant do anything.
And now im stuck at home waitingg for christian to fb me when he gets to my house
so i can leave.
P A T H E T I C

Gonna poo nowwwwwww.
stomach hurts so baddd.

2010-07-30T23:30:00.000-07:00

I GOT A MOFUGGINNNN JOBB!!!
Heheheeheehohoo, i've actually been working for like 3 weeks already.
DAMN times FLIES!

I think my blog is boring because i stopped writing about
how i feel and my thoughts but more of what i did and LOTS of unnecessary stuff.
I dont like the idea of people reading my emotions.
Its just so........invading.
And i know thats what blogs are for yadayada but blogs are also for updating,right?
WHICH i fail at too actually because i "update" once every lifetime.
wow, i fail.
But yeah i dont knowww....i wish i could just open up and write everything down.
It seems like it would release the burden but..not really.
I have a contradiction for every thought in my head.
I compare everything, its sad and annoying.
I have debates with myself in my head like literally for everything.

Well, recently, i've been effing up a lot at home.
I put my mom through a lot.
I complain but really, i made her what she is now.
which is paranoid and on my ass.
paranoid like if i dont pick up her phone, she thinks i mightve just died somewhere.
Seriously today after work i couldnt pick up her phonecall because my phone died
and she thought i got into an accident so her and grace and went on a hunt for me
-___________-
Too much love mom.
Love CAN be too much,
better more than less though right? right.
Appreciation is what i need to learn, to express.
Because i know she knows i appreciate everything she does deep down,
but im such a bitch and never show it or even worse show the contrary that
its very understandable if she has doubts.
Oh mom.
But " all that i am or ever hope to be, i owe it my angel mother"
Its true.

IM GOING SHOPPING TOMR AT MELROSE BECAUSE I GOT
PAYED TODAY YAYYYUHH.
Im gonna buy myself a nice bag and some clothes and
get my nails done and eat good food.
No longer a broke bitch:)

omg can i please marry himmm?

2010-07-10T03:00:00.000-07:00

Hello!
Im soo tiredd but i wanted to blog before i sleep:)
I promised myself im gonna sleep earlier from now on
cuz ive really been breaking out ALOT recently and i have obscenely big
and obvious eyebags like really everyone makes fun about me for it.
I literally have like triple layer bags. its so gross.
So yeahh.
Andddd guess whatt, i have a job interview.
My moms friend hooked me up with the job so please
please pleaseee let me get it!
I REALLLLYYY need it.
I'll work my ass off..or try to.
Haha well yeah, short post cuz i gotta
keep up to my promise and sleep early although
its past 3 right now but tonight doesnt really count
cuz i got home like an hour ago.
Ok goodnight!

2010-07-02T00:11:00.000-07:00

Nothing much has been going on this past few days.
Just the same old - hanging out with people.
Nothing new like a job or surprise money in the mail.
Only progress thats kindaa been going on is school, which im still glad about.
But its not even 100% done, only in the process but no complaints.
Im still thankful.
Damn...life is though.
lol
I need a haircut but im even too broke for that shit.
Good game.

Tryna stand on my two feet.

2010-06-22T00:56:00.000-07:00

I hope by September, everything will work out.
I hope my school application goes through and i'll finally start school.
I hope i get a job. ( but this needs to be before september)
I hope i stop gaining weight/lose weight and get a nice summer body. heehee

I hate that image is so important.
I wish i could day idgaf, but fact is, we ALL do, even if its a little bit.
Aishhhhh.
Anywayss, its Korea vs Nigeria tomr!
WE BETTER WINNN. goooo Koreaa~

2010-06-14T02:37:00.000-07:00

GG GOOD GAME.
I need to get more sleep...im breaking out like crazyyyy and
i have HUGE obscene eyebags and everyone bags on me about it-__-

Anywayss....this weekend was pretty fun:)
It ends today but yeahhh...gonna try finding another job tomr!
Someone hire me pleaseee!
It was graces birthday on friday.
..mmm she didnt do much because she went home red
the day before cuz we drank a little and she got burned by her mom:(
I feel bad because she really didnt get to do much cuz of that.
I was gonna get a cake and everything...but
things havent been working out.
HOWEVERRRR.. i WILL get her a birthday gift.

Anywayss...im tired and slowly getting sober.
Im gonna sleep soon
Night world!

2010-06-03T23:40:00.000-07:00

Jenn and I
Found this picture as i was looking through old emails.

Things havent been going too well.
It's not too bad...i've been through worse.
The most unbelievable thing happened couple of days ago.
My mom had to take care of my drunk ass.
Wow much? hahah it was pretty weird.

Sometimes things fall apart in order for other things to fall into place.

2010-05-25T00:50:00.000-07:00

Just got home from wulmae for biggie's birthday.
But he was getting mad which made me mad because he
misunderstood what i said.
I HATE having shit with people...
seriously.
But yeah................moodkill.
So i just took couple of shots and grace and i just left cuz we had to go home early anyway.
-_____-
Anyway friends making memorial weekend trip plan to palm springs.
i reallyy wanna goo!
im gonna try to make this work:)
hopefullyyy i can go.
And jenos might go to mexico with a bunch of people for memorial weekend tooo.
Hope he comes to palm springs instead. haha
k... night!

2010-05-22T05:23:00.000-07:00

<3>
Havent heard it in soo long!
The music videoo is good..watch it!

Real guys go for real down to Mars girls.
hahahhs

2010-05-20T21:30:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i guess you just need someone
in your life to keep nudging you.
Keep forcing and going at you untill you take a step and do something.
Hate to admit it but yeah i need people like that in my life.
I have pretty minimal self discipline.

2010-05-19T22:31:00.001-07:00

Wow finally have the internet fixed at my house!
i havent bloggedd in the longest time mannn.

Guss what....
i logged into my email and i went to the last few emails and what did i find..
i found some old pictures. hahah.
brought up soo many memories..
i miss so many things.
I shall post them up tomr when i blog again:)
ANDDD im gonna change my blog song tomr too geezzzz its been too long
im sick of this song listening to it gives me a headache.
hahaha wow im broke
someone please hire me!

2010-04-26T20:34:00.000-07:00

Ahhhh I'm soo fuckinggg fattt I'm rolling on the floor and everywhere else.
Rolling is my way of getting around cuz I'm just a big blob of fat.

My phone cover and screen protector that I got online
has yet to arrive. I know patience is a virtue but 2 weeks is testing it.
My droid obviouslyyy needs it. I suck with electronics.
Its pretty amazing I wrecked my samsung glyde in 2 years, broke my
Toshiba laptop in about 2 and a halff. Toshiba - brand known to last longer than most other
Companies, laptops in general are supposed to last at leasttttt 5 years. My camera, barelyy use it. Ugh totally regret buying it.
Terrible tsk tsk.

I think I'm finally getting internet on Wednesday.
I'm sick of blogging through my phone. It was fun the first few times but now
I feel pretty dumbb. Its takes a lot of my phone battery too.
well yeah that's it.
Night worldd!

Latest song craze
Gravity - sarah bareilles.
Wow heard her live version somewhere, prettyb freakinn amazing.

2010-04-24T04:07:00.000-07:00

Blogging from my phone once againn.
Just got back homee bt I left my phone charger in jenos carr ughh so I gotta save my batttery till
I see him tomr but mann..just had to blog.

So just got back from vermont nrb which is like a karaoke place.
Before that we drank at wulmae everyone got so drunk and fucked up bt me and jenny were
Pretty sober. Thenn all this bullshit happened. Jose started being a little bitch and we were jusr bitching and
Going at each other for a little bit. Honestly, I hate people like you gtfo of my life.
Then got pulled by cops roy almosttt got a dui! Scared the living shit out of me, thought I was gonna get
Tested for alcohol too.
Ugh so much more stupid shit happened bt I gotta end here for now mannnn..
My phones dying lol shall write more tomr!

2010-04-18T20:40:00.000-07:00

This weekend was pretty instense.
One of the most intense part mustve been when I found out my phone was drenched in
Water for about over an hour...
My new freakin droid that cost a bomb...survived!
Omg ok so this is what happened.
Grace kenny and hyun came over to my house to play. We were watching a movie
Or something I guess so I had like drinks on the table where I left my phone on.
After a while I'm like hey where's my phone. I find it, and pick it up to check it and its like
Completelyyy drenched in water and dripping.
You don't understand my heart dropped!
So I took the battery and everything out to dry for a day.
I kept lagging it and didn't want to try turning the phone on because I felt
Like there's was no hope and I didn't want to face reality.
Buttt I tried it and it worked and I almost cried in joyyy.
I learned that when you get water in your phone, your supposed to put it in rice.
Raw uncooked rice because its supposed to absorb all the water away. It might be why my phone
Worked!:)
Thank godddddddd.

Came home today in the morning again...mom was not too happy.
More than that she was obviously worried bt honestly, I kinda see that she's slowlyyyy
Getting used it. I mean she's never gonna be completely ok with me staying out that late
Bt of course compared to the first few times the stress and worry is less intense.
But regardless of whatever and on a totally irrelevent? note.. I have the best parents in the world.
My mom is awesome! I love her<3

2010-04-12T12:11:00.000-07:00

I feel like i make the term ' you never know what you
have till you lose them'
I think i take many things for granted.
Im kind of bitter even when i know at the back of my head that
i may not be the luckiest girl on earth but still im not the unluckiest girl in the universe, you know?
Its tough trying to be sensible.
Its tough growing up!>:(

Anyhoos, FINALLY got our nails done, me and grace.
My nails are.....Raspberry from...Essie?
Very childish color yes, havent gotten something this pink
and striking in a while and grace got this coral-y color it was really cute.

Deadmau5 on gossip girl. LOL
Everytime my desire to watch the show slightly burns out, like really slightly,
it finds someway to it up on a high passionate flame again.

Been having too fun much these days, my body is breaking down.
Im going to stay home today.
Munster and i decided today we're both gonna just stay home
PLUS im on my period:(
f mother nature.

2010-04-09T09:44:00.000-07:00

The kids i babysit =
Love/hate relationship

Finally fixed the internet and my laptop.
Todays gonna be a fun fun day, i hope.
Grace is coming to la soon and i think theres a party
going on today at anaheim or fullerton or something.
Hopefully it comes through:)

2010-04-08T07:59:00.000-07:00

Once againnn I'm blogging from my phone at coffeebean at after 7ish
In the morning while waiting to babysit.
I'm soo sleep deprived these days, its kinda sad.
My eyebags are obscenely big.

My life is.so.mundane.

I bought a bunch of brushes yesterday from cvs and I'm soo excited tp
try it out loll.
It comes in a pack and in it there's one huge brush for the overall face,
blush brush, eyeshadow brush and eyebrow brush. Loll make up is soo fun:)

Ummm....I'm trying to edit some of the font sizes and stuff but I
Dont think it works on my phone..
Either that or I just don't know how to work it.
Uhh...like you guys care huh.
Lol k.

2010-04-03T00:39:00.000-07:00

DHate being tired
Hate being depressed
Hate being fcccnnnn insomnic

Babysat for another 12 hours today.
Fml I'm so tired.
Hate it when I'm tired. I don't feel like doing anything and I feel like it brings people
down and I become some sort of burden.

Why is it so hard to fall asleep??
I don't freakin understand my body. If your tired and exhausted just shut down
and knock out.
What the hells wrong with you..
So depressing.
Alskjghfkdlsfg
:(

2010-04-02T08:18:00.000-07:00

Dudeee.....I'm blogging with my my phone!
Loll
Anywayss we finallyyyy moved 2 days ago.
Its weird living out of la crescenta. I miss it already:(
Blog more laterrr.

2010-03-28T22:30:00.000-07:00

Wow im freakin grounded.
Ive never been grounded ever my whole life..
But its just for today so whatever.
But im pretty sure from tomr onwards i wont be able to stay out as late anymore.
Honestly, if i get my freakin license back ill drive home whenever i need to because
obviously right now i have to depend on people to give me rides.
-_______________________________-
Freakinnnnn bullshitt! :(

I wanna get whatever i like....

2010-03-26T05:36:00.001-07:00

Almost 6 & i still cannot sleep.
My bodys breaking down like i told Jojo.
My stomach and heads hurting and ears are itching like mad!
well she's not replying me on fb..
If she dosnt reply within 3 minutes im gonna knock myself out
and sleep.
GOODNIGHT

2010-03-26T04:43:00.000-07:00

Cant sleep!!!
Hate this..
I was so sure i was gonna ktfo as soon as i get home because i was so
exhausted from babysitting for two days straight and waking up at 6
in the morning for that today.
F.M.L

what to do what to do...
I have wake up early tomr too cuz me and grace are going to
melrose to shop for kennys gift and our stuff too.
UGH.
Buttt i got payed today:)
I love the Leal's theyre so sweet and they always overpay me. hehe
K well fml im gonna go pee again.

2010-03-26T03:09:00.000-07:00

Bold what is true

001. i miss somebody right now.
002. i watch more tv than i used to.
003. i love olives.
004. i love sleeping.
005. i own lots of books. (owned)
006. i wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. i love to play video games.
008. i’ve watched porn movies before.
010. i have been in a threesome.
011. i have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
012. i believe honesty is the best policy.
013. i have acne free skin. just small pimples here and there:)
014. i like and respect al sharpton.
015. i curse frequently.
016. i’ve changed a lot mentally over the last year.
017. i have a hobby.
018. i’ve been told i have a nice butt.
019. i carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
020. i’m really, really smart.
021. i’ve never broken anyone else’s bones.
022. i have a secret that i am ashamed to reveal. ( not really ashamed, but I have secrets I’d rather keep to myself, personal things )
023. i love rain.
024. i’m paranoid at times.
025. i would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
026. i need money right now.
027. i love sushi.
028. i talk really, really fast sometimes.
029. i have fresh breath in the morning.
030. i have semi-long hair.
032. i have at least one brother and/or sister.
033. i was born in a country outside of the u.s.
034. i shave my legs.
035. i have a twin.
037. i couldn’t survive without caller i.d.
038. i like the way that i look.
039. i have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
041. i am usually pessimistic.
042. i have mood swings.
043. i think prostitution should be legalized.
044. i think britney spears is pretty.
045. i have cheated on a significant other.
046. i have a hidden talent.
047. i’m always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
048. i think that i’m popular.
049. i am currently single.
050. i have kissed someone of the same sex.
051. i enjoy talking on the phone.
052. i practically live in sweatpants or pj pants. / leggings
053. i love to shop.
054. i would rather shop than eat.
055. i would classify myself as ghetto.
056. i’m bourgie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders. (parents made me! i was young and naive)
057. i’m obsessed with my blog! half true
058. i don’t hate anyone.
059. i’m a pretty good dancer.
060. i’m a horrible dancer.
061. i’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. i have a cell phone.
063. i watch muchmusic on a daily basis.
064. i cry myself to sleep.
065. i have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
067. i have never been in a real relationship before.
068. i’ve rejected someone before.
069. i currently have a crush on someone
070. i have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life. i do somewhat...
071. i want to have children in the future.
072. i have changed a diaper before.
073. i’ve had the cops called on me before.
074. i bite my nails.
075. i am a member of the tom green fan club.
076. i’m not allergic to anything deadly.
077. i have a lot to learn.
078. i have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.
079. i plan on seeing ice cube’s newest “friday” movie.
080. i am very shy around the opposite sex.
081. i’m online 24/7, even as an away message.
082. i have at least 5 away messages saved.
083. i have tried alcohol before.
084. i have made a move on a friend’s significant other in the past.
085. i own the “south park” movie.
087. when i was a kid i played “the birds and the bees” with a neighbor or chum.
088. i enjoy country music.
089. i love my best friend(s).
090. i think that pizza hut has the best pizza.
091. i watch soap operas whenever i can.
092. i’m obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
093. i have used my sexuality to advance my career. tried to look pretty for an interview counts?
094. i love michael jackson, scandals and all.
095. i know all the words to slick rick’s “children’s story”.
096. halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
097. i watch spongebob squarepants and i like it.
098. i have dated a close friend’s ex.
099. i’m happy as of this moment.
100. i have gone scuba diving.
101. i’ve had a crush on someone i’ve never met.
102. i’ve kissed someone i knew i shouldn’t.
103. i play a musical instrument.
104. i strongly dislike math.
105. i’m procrastinating on something right now.
106. i own and use a library card.
107. i fall in “lust” more than in “love”.
108. cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. i think the lord of the rings is one of the greatest things ever.
110. i’m obsessed with the tv show “lost.”
111. i am resentful that i have to grow up.
112. i am an entirely different person around different people.
113. i think the world would be a better place if people just smiled and meant it more often.
114. i think ramen is the best kind of food in the whole world.
115. i am suffering of a broken heart.
116. i am a nerd.
117. no matter where i am or who i’m with, i always seem to be lonely.
118. i am left handed and proud of it.
119. i don’t change who i am for someone else.
120. my heart resides below my feet.
121. i am a senior in high school.
122. i enjoy smoothies.
123. i have gastritis.
124. i have nothing better to do with my time. clearly.
125. i am listening to radiohead right now.
126. most people call me by my middle name.
127. i once stole a music stand.
128. pi confuses me.
129. i love nascar!
130. i own over 200 cds.
131. i work 7 days a week.
132. i have mono.
132. i don’t have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.
133. people tell me i have a horrible sense of humor.
134. i’m only wearing underwear.
135. i had more than one thanksgiving dinner this year.
136. i’ve driven to a different state to see a band i liked.
137. i am the most over analytical person i know. one of
138. i believe in wasting time.
139. i don’t listen to too much music.
140. i have a shoe fetish.
141. my favorite holiday isn’t christmas.
142. i prefer weeks off of work instead of days here and there.
143. i enjoy sex.
144. i wanna go home.
145. i don’t know what i would do without my friends.
146. christmas threw up in my dorm room and i love it.
147. friends is (one of) my favorite tv shows.
148. i’m hungry.
149. i’m still angry about the nip/tuck season 2 finale cliffhanger.
150. i’m a potterhead and proud of it!
151. i noticed there are several numbers missing from this list, making this very much not the 151st entry.
152. i lied about one of the items on this list.
153. my siblings are my best friends.
154. i believe cheese should be its own food group it is soooo good!
155. i have a problem expressing things.
156. i have lost a parent.
157. i am the most deprived person i know on the face of the planet.
158. i have at least one test tomorrow that i am not prepared for yet.
159. i love slim jims! even if they are really bad for you.
160. i am sick and tired of school so i am not going.
161. i love sundance.
162. i do not watch television.
163. i love starbucks coffee drinks.
164. i am living at least one lie right now. hmm..?
165. i love wearing skirts, even if its winter.
166. i’m a techie.
167. i am writing this far, far too late/early.
168. i’m a little crazy.
169. i like the smell of white tic tacs.
170. i know at least one person in a “life or death” crises at this moment.
171. i don’t associate myself with any political parties.
172. i always know all the gossip at my school/workplace/whatever, and nobody ever suspects it.
173. i have thought about suicide.
174. i have no idea what i am going to write for my question.
175. i can be selfish.
176. i’m so emo at times.
177. i can solve a 3x3 rubik’s cube.
178. i think the human race is evil & should be demolished.
179. i cheated on a test before.
180. i am a member of animemusicvideos.org
181. i’m sick of drama
182. i need a job

I have to pee!
This made me hold my pee in ugh.

//
uhh...i dont know why some of them are highlighted in the background
and some are not, but basically the bolded ones are the 'true' ones.
Kinda OCDing right now, its pissing me off just a little bit.
Night worlddd!

2010-03-24T00:31:00.000-07:00

I feel like i use money too easily these days.
I dont like it.
It makes me uncomfortable knowing my parents worked so hard
for it but im spending it away just like that.
Especially in this economy.
I'd much rather it be money that i made by myself..
Idk.. it makes me feel so guilty.
And i dont like feeling guilty.
Therefore conclusion : i need to find a job!
Someone freakin hire me already! :(
But more than that, i need to get my life back on track.
I need just one thing to work out to get the ball rolling.
Because honestly, NOTHING is really working out for me right now.
Not complaining...its just the sad plain truth.

2010-03-22T23:36:00.000-07:00

Why so h o t?

2010-03-22T19:22:00.001-07:00

SICKKKK

I got my DROID.
Its soo tight. Everything about it!
Burned a hole in my pocket but no regrets.
Definitely worth it:)

My friends wanted me to name my phone Dimitri!
LOL i came up with Vania.
Having something new is such a fun addition to this
boring mundane repetitive life of mine.

2010-03-22T17:35:00.000-07:00

2010-03-18T22:42:00.000-07:00

Man if i had legs like these...

2010-03-18T22:31:00.000-07:00

Wow i hate it when my mom suddenly calls me
and gets emotional on me.
It trips me out and gets me scared.
Im scared.

She just called me right now again
and her tire popped on the exit of the freeway.
mann...what the fuck.
And i was typing an email to my dad and i accidentally typed something
that tripped me the hell out.
Tonights gonna be long until im assured everything is going to be fine.
I hate nights like this.

2010-03-18T01:48:00.000-07:00

Omggggg nate and serena got back together!
when did they get so cute! they were never this cute in season 1.
hahah

I didnt go to csuns beerpong tournament today cuz grace came down
to lcr but she cudnt stay out too late and northridge is so far from where she lives
so i just stayed behind and kicked it with her and everyone else who didnt go.
It was still fun:)
Then she left and everyone left so it ended up being just me and kenny
so we chilled at his jacuzzi.
Talked for like 3 hours.
Now im home..
Sitting here wishing life was more exciting.
I have no life:(

2010-03-16T23:57:00.001-07:00

I hate people who think they're so much better off than others.
I despise them.
Whether you show it or not, it really doesnt matter.
People who show it more are effing annoying of course.
Seriously, get over yourself.
Youre REALLY not that great.

Anyway, today was pretty chill.
We went to Burbank to get buffalo wings which are on special deals every
Tuesdays - 50c for each wing!
Got there and there was a long ass line, it was because the Lakers game was playing.
We finally got seated, ate the wings( they were so bomb)
and watched the game, which the Lakers won of course.

Hmmm..oh ys called me today.
We recently got in contact again haha.
He invited me and my friends to his friends pool party this friday.
Dont know if i'll be able to make it.
We'll see.

There's gonna be beerpong tournament at csun tomr!
so excited! :)
Im pretty sure Jeno and Christian will get first place because
they're so freakin good!
hehe

2010-03-15T13:27:00.000-07:00

Came upon one of these while cutting strawberries at Ce'fiore

Mini..epiphany?

2010-03-15T10:34:00.000-07:00

I think i just sit by living life however the way it goes and hope that
something will happen to make it better.
Sure, i do make efforts but honestly, even i feel like i could put in more than that.
I wouldn't say a lot more, but somewhat more enough to make a little more difference
to my life.

"You must find the passion, the unrelenting passion"
What is it? for me-

2010-03-09T22:13:00.000-08:00

Ugh, just had jack in the box...
this is why im fat!
This whole month seriously, i've been getting fast food at night.
not even night like at 2am.
I've been going to carls jr, jack in the box and in n out continuously this past month.

Anyhoo, i sorta had a job interview today.
Its at a bakery/cafe called cake house.
I was just gonna go and apply i didnt expect an interview..kinda got me off guard.
But oh well.

Im moving soon, to LA town.
The apartment has its own gym so yeah...im gonna really lose weight
all my winter weight:/

And i've been hearing that people are thinking that i've changed...?!
Um i really havent and all the fb status are seriously my friends raping my facebook.
haha yeah...just thought i'd explain myself.
im gonna change my layout its pretty ugly.

2010-03-04T03:02:00.000-08:00

Im such a bad blogger/ hypocrite!
I always criticize people when they dont keep up with their blogging but now
im doing it too!
Anyways, i suddenly decided to blog because my friend jenny has a blog
and now jeno has one too!:D
Blogging used to be fun until no one really did it but now im all into it again.
im gonna keep up with it:)

So today, i pretty much spent the entire day with my mom.
We're moving soon so we went around looking at places.
I think we've decided on the one virgil and 1th.
i liked the one on la fayette but ehh whatevaa.
And then i met up with grace jenny michelle jeno christian a bunch of people.
Alot of shit happened:/
shake it off shake it off!
and then at 1 they decide to go to ggegori ( where you play pool)-__-
so we go and i come back like 40 mins later than im supposed to so i get bitched at by my mom
and we fight because she said some ridiculous shit, which i strongly believe
its because of her menopause?
or maybe she's fed up with me coming home so late all the time:/
I SHOULDVE JUST NOT GONE!>:(

But ees done.
Thats it.

I should stop eating!
Mid night munchies are the DEVIL.

High kick!

2010-01-13T23:30:00.000-08:00

Ugh high kick is my life these days!
<33
why is it so cute and funnyyy?!!
ep77 <3

Epiphany?

2010-01-12T20:38:00.000-08:00

Omg, it is identity crisis.

Wikipedia:
According to Erikson's stages, the onset of the identity crisis is in the teenage years.
Erikson suggested that people experience an identity crisis when they lose "a sense of personal sameness and historical continuity"

WORD

Ehh

2010-01-12T20:05:00.000-08:00

Its so hard to explain how i feel.
The past seems like a past life and the present just feels like..the present.
Maybe its because i like to live in the moment that
i try not to think about my life before.
Its not that i try not to think about it, but i guess you could say
i try not to dwell on it?
Well this just makes me look bad.
Basically im not saying i wish to forget what everything was before,
but it feels like a dream i had and i'd nvr led that life.
(I dont think many can understand what im saying, its not what many people go through)
But the memories are clear and i know, obviously that its not a dream.
This might all sound negative and reflect me as a bitch who
should be ashamed but that's not how
i mean it to be.
I've been trying to voice my feelings but its so hard to put it out.
And now that i have, it sounds like im some self loathing past despising bitch.
But its not.
I wish this nvr happened, because im curious to know
how my life would be different.
But im also glad it happened because i do like life right now.
Although many times i've felt that i would be somewhat happier if i stayed.
Many times.

I feel like 2 different identities.
When i reflect on the past, it just all feels so far away.
and i hate it.
I hate that im losing grip of my life before.
It hasnt been long, i know.
But here its a completely different world
and i am adapting so fast it feels like i've lived here my whole life.
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This is how i feel, simply put.
I feel like if i nvr left, i would genuinely be a very happy person.
But being here, i feel like i am myself.
Then i get confused, what is myself?
Who i was before? or who am i now?
i still feel like the same person..
but yet somehow different..
Or not.
FUCK.

So tell me, how many people go through this shit?
Not playing victim but fuck, if you did, counsel me.
This is almost like...identity crisis.

Happy New Years!

2010-01-01T04:15:00.000-08:00

So its finally 2010.
Its hard to explain but this year flew by yet at the same time felt ridiculously long.
I am content to leave 2009 behind and start this motherfucking new year.
Another decade just like that.
Tried to decide on a new year resolution but for once this time,
i couldn't make up my mind not because of the jitter hesitation between the many options
but because i didn't really have anything i really wanted to achieve.
I mean there are things i want to accomplish of course, but not the new year resolution kind.
...if you know what i mean.
But i decided if i cant come up with anything i'll stick to the cliche and make my new year resolution eating healthy.
I mean, might as well right.
Well besides that, countdown was fun.
For some reason it was kind of emotional for me.
I mean nothing big happened to me personally this year, but yet the interchanging from 2009
to 2010, that split second, i was overwhelmed.
Thoughts ran in my head, and emotions pulsed through my mind and body.
Cant quite say what it was cuz i dont even know what it was, but overwhelmed would
sort of put it somewhere in place.
I wish i could describe it better but its one of those things
where you know nothing you say or write out will come even close to expressing how you felt.
Although it hit me pretty hard and i think im gonna look back at that moment maybe even tomr
and think about what it was.
Why are we so complicated.
UGH! i have the freakin hiccups.
My second session this DAY this ones going longg and its starting to poke my ribs.

im gonna knock out nowww.
Kinda excited to wake up tomr to jan 1 2010, although technically it is already
but the day has yet to begin because its 4.44am and its dark and everyones asleep
so it doesnt really count.
Haha Happy New Years everyone!
I really hope 2010 will be better year, for me and for you guys too.
Gnight!<3

Late Christmas post!

2009-12-28T19:37:00.002-08:00

Merry Christmas everyone!

Naturally, my post is in green and red because they're because Christmas colors.
I hope everyone had a blast because i kinda.sorta did.
It could've been better but i guess im pretty content.
New Years is almost coming up too which means you guys
are all gonna be getting the royal red packets soon.
Lucky you guys because obviously im not getting any.
haha.

I think i should've gained about 15 pounds.
Yeah thats probably about right.
Ugh im an eating machine!
Im such an irresponsible blogger my blog is ugly.
Oh by the way, the only reason why
i havent been able to update is because my laptop charger
broke( yeah the third time in the 2 years that i've had it).
Pretty amazing i think im just really bad with electronics.
OH anddddd also, im gna get the DROIDDD!
Im hella excited.
Actually im with stuck with a couple of choices and i honestly cant make up my
mind.
Blackberry storm, Samsung rogue, Droid motorola or Droid HTC.
But since blackberry is annoying and samsung isn't worth it i thought
i might as well get the droid.
i would get the iphone but verizon doesnt have that and switching to
at&t's gonna be a bitch.

Yeah well happy holidays everyone!

Late Christmas post!

2009-12-28T19:37:00.001-08:00

ugh

2009-12-11T12:08:00.000-08:00

First thought in my head when i woke up with a swollen throat this morning -
This must be a freakin joke, i am not sick again.

Die

2009-12-10T04:11:00.000-08:00

I hate snitches, snitches should die.
If you think what you did is justifiable because it was the right thing to do,
or at least YOU think it was the right thing to do, gtfo.
Who's to judge whats right and wrong?
Not you for sure.

Up at 4.18am on a thursday morning because
im experiencing the worst cramps of my life!:(
Drinking on your rag is a bad idea ladies, trust me on that one.

Suicidal boredom

2009-12-09T00:11:00.000-08:00

I was so bored at home today i just wanted to shoot myself.
Tomorrow though, is going to be a long day.

The weather's turning cold and drying out my lips.
I need to get new chapstick.

1:59

2009-12-07T01:27:00.000-08:00

I've always believed in treating people the way you wanted to be treated.
And i thought by believing in that, I was living that.
But then, how effing easy would life be if that were to be the case?
I came to realize that just knowing that some way is right isn't just all.
You have to be living it out, and practice what you preach.
Because actions really do speak louder than words,
and words are nothing but interpretive sounds.
Or a little more than that.
And thoughts furthermore are merely comments unsaid.

so much phlegm! lol

2009-12-05T02:43:00.001-08:00

Fourth day.
Im down with the flu.
I cant breath through my nose and
i cant stop freakin coughing.
Its hell, in the middle of the night im like coughing my sleep and lungs away.
Its like, oh my god, just kill me.
:[
Sad huhh.

Wellss i just got home a little while ago.
Im gonna clean up and go to bed.
Gnighttt!

Titles are not my niche

2009-12-01T12:20:00.000-08:00

Im sure you guys have noticed i changed my blogskin.
I dont like it, and im wondering why i changed it.
Now i want my old one back but thats not gonna happen because i've lost the code
for that one. ugh
whatever. i'll find a better one.
Just bear with this one for a little bit.
Not that people actually come by anymore.
MY FAULT, i know MY FAULT.

& wow, im actually hating this skin more than i thought i would.
I keep looking at it and its pissing me off.
i know you cant see the tagboard very well either.
i'll change it soon.

Yeah well im pissed what an ugly blog is what people are gonna think
everytime they step in here.
Im not dissing the skin or the person who made it im just not feeling it, personally, dont take it personally now.

The actual updating like where you write about your life and such,
and not blabbering, i will do soon.
like after i get the skin fixed.
Till then

OMINAR

2009-11-29T21:08:00.000-08:00

Wow i havent been here in a while.
My blogs dead.
So i went on blogskins.com to find a new skin
in hopes of "reinvigorating" the blog but i couldn't find anything i liked.
Fail. i'll go on later.

Time flies.
November's almost over.
Christmas is almost here.
Then it'll be 2010.
Reality check to the face.
I need to get on with life.

2009-11-01T22:42:00.000-08:00

Im in the worst situation right now!
So im really freakin hungry right, but my jaw and tongue's kinda effed up
so everytime i chew its soo painful.
so im starving but i cant eat, because its like torture.
:(
Fuck life status.

Ugh anyway, Halloween weekend was amazing.
I miss it and
uhh...these freakin shorts of mine are giving me crazy wedgies..
lol bt yeah. hope everyone had a fun halloween weekend tooo.

Mmm have you guys ever been in that situation where you
want to say youre really doing ok, like you really want to say it
to make the other person feel better or like whatever,
but because youre so NOT doing ok that you cant even bring yourself to
say yeah im really ok?
yeah im sorta in that situation right now.
Then you feel all bad because you feel like the other person isnt reassured at all.
But honestly, its pretty bad.
Like i cant even bring myself to lie about it because its not fair to myself
to say im ok.
Because im not really doing that great and why be unfair to yourself for the sake of someone else. Regardless of who that person is.
That is irrelevant.

But yeah i think i'll have to continue later i need to go real quick lol

2009-10-21T00:06:00.000-07:00

Urghhh...crampingg itt.

I dyed my hair last night again.
This time....i think i went a little too light:/
My blogs so dead..if you guys want pictures then i really would suggest going
on fb.
Then again, people tag me in retarded pictures so i dont know if its really worth the visit.

Just did my own nails.
Crazy fuckers jacked my wallet so obviously i cant get them done.

Im tiredd gonna knock out early toonight.
Night<3

.

2009-10-18T22:09:00.000-07:00

Here's an epic tale.

Two days ago, i dropped my wallet in the streets of Glendale.
I was by myself, on the way to go babysit.
I got paid $110 the day before in cash and it was all in my wallet, with some other extra money that i already had. it totaled to about $150.
When i realized i really didnt have it, i started crying uncontrollably
because i was not having the best morning and my period was about to come.
& I really did actually work hard for all that money and it was pretty much all that i had.
I call my mom, she starts tearing up because she feels bad for me and i go home.
On the way, the bank calls saying the cops found my wallet with all my money inside.
I go crazy and tear a little again in joy and relief.
The cops waited outside my apartment and i got my wallet back.
I am rejoicing that i got everything back.
That night on the same day, at a friends beerpong party, my wallet goes missing.
Apparently someone stole it.
I dont know how to end this right now but i am fucking pissed and disappointed
that some stranger that i dont even know who found my wallet on the streets can turn it in but people i know can just jack it and act like they're friends around me.
Well fuck you and fuck your whole family.
Karma's a bitch and i hope it gets you.

2009-10-14T08:49:00.000-07:00

Arguably korea's fastest rapper they sayyyy.
Idk and i dont really care but this song is hot<3

The weathers starting to get coldd.
Bringing out the winter sweaters, scarfs and boots.
Its raining todayyy
Cant really write much noww
laterrr

2009-09-26T09:11:00.000-07:00

So. Hung. Over.

Worst hung over ever.
whhy is this happening..
i am up 9.14 when i slept at 4.
fml
My heads groggy and that the same time softly pounding.
My stomach is just burning and i am still nauseous.

Anyway my mom kinda caught me slippin this morning.
Before she left to work she kissed me on the cheek and asked me what
was up today.
Of course i was ready to shoot someone because
i was not feeling good and it was 7.30 and like why the heck do you always do this to me.
Seriously sometimes i am up by 8 because of her.
She just HAS to come to me and wake me up to make herself feel
better or something. and wth am i supposed to do being up so early.
well duh sillys, eat.
i hate waking up early because firstly i get tired later part of the day,
and also i eat like a starving homeless person cuz im hungry and cuz theres literally nothing else to do.
And then i get food coma and knock out. which is just worse.
Because i wake up pissed of at many things.
but oh shit, i digress.
So yeah basically i guess my mom smelled alcohol on me and
she asked if i drank.
yup i said no obviously but she's probably gonaa tripp out on me noww.
& i have a beerbelly. yeah totally on the side note. loll

Awwright. thats it for now.
I would like to give a shout out to my beloved friends joanne and vanessa
who called me and said they'll call back but never did but its ok, i forgive,
i know i know, they stood me up but hay, what are friends for.
And um i would also like to say i appreciate her leading me to visiting her blog
when she told me she writes about me sometimes and i realize that she really did write about me in her most recent entry actually where she writes about the absolutely fun filled day she had with Vanessa and Eu chuan and his gf and as i read on i read a small section of myself.
i would say...3% of the entire entry.
Yeah..its kinda small..but hay, gotta be complacent.

Hahah im just playing.
Im happy you guys had funnn, albeit without me but im not gonna go on about that
because i COULD go on forever. lol
Yeah, i miss you guys.
thats all i can say.
I hate that i cant meet up with you all,
it really is beyond what i can do.
But hopefully that will change soooonnn.
:]

So.
whats am i craving for breakfast today.
Lets see..
ahh.
i
crave
spam.
Fuckin love spamm.
Sometimes it taste weird though.
but on the most part its bombbizzzle.

2009-09-25T00:11:00.001-07:00

Get ready to be sick of this song:]

2009-09-23T00:07:00.000-07:00

People make mistakes.
It would be great if everyone could just understand this fact
and keep it in mind so whenever someone does something wrong,
no matter how bad it is, just kinda try to look past it.
Im not saying like immediately or that its going to be easy.
Obviously if its something serious then its gonna take some time,
but just put some effort into understanding that they probably didnt mean to?
and even though they might not admit or express it, they probably feel like shit inside.
And if they really dont, then yelling pointlessly aint gon do shit. ya knooo??
Try talking to them and if theyre stupid and stubborn then yeah yell the shit out of them.
But things that make sense obviously.
I hate dumb people who just yell nonsensical bullshit when theyre mad.
Its like ok...gtfo of here, nobody cares anymore.
I might sound like a hypocrite here because obviously
i get mad at people too for doing stupid shit but i try to see it from their point of
view or just kinda look past whatever they did.

Forgiving is a different matter altogether, im saying just know that you make mistakes too
and one day, you might even do something even worse.
As a person, i make mistakes on the daily and i have to try not blaming myself
so if you could not make it worst by putting it on me, that would be great.

And what is this random blogshop posting stuff on my tagboard
-_-
I just love this emoticon, its so expressive.
Cuz like my face is LITERALLY like that as im writing this.
lmao

2009-09-19T11:31:00.000-07:00

i am broke.
I have 63cents in my debit card.
$1 cash in my wallet.
I do have like $11 something in my bank account but i cant get it out because
the minimum amount you can withdraw is fckn 20.
whythef 20?
i think 10 is good.
So basically, im staying home until the people i babysit for call me.
Because $1.63 is all the money i have in the world.

2009-09-15T09:25:00.001-07:00

WHY is my face so effing swollen.

So i was supposed to go get a haircut w grace today.
We tried making an appointment but the lady doesnt come in on tuesdays
so we're gonna go on saturday instead.
I dyed my hair again and now its almost blonde under the sun. fml
Im very tempted to dye it again but you guys should feel my hair.
They feel like pubes rofl.
Theyre so rough:[

The weathers starting to get cold now.
I cant go out without a cardigan or some sort of jacket anymore.
Its about time though, i miss winter.
I cant wait to go snowboarding!

::
This slow process drives me crazy.
Can i not be involved?
It seems like too much to ask for but think about me.
I am being selfish, but so are you guys.
Why tell me two sided stories?
Do i really have to feel guilty trying to protect myself?

2009-09-09T10:45:00.001-07:00

My life is so interesting.
Thats why i have nothing to write about.

v new song obsession

2009-09-09T10:44:00.000-07:00

2009-08-29T08:43:00.001-07:00

Crazy mountain fire in La Canada.
Couple people i know had to evacuate from their houses.
Its been ongoing for dayss and spreading and its scary cuz you can see the fire,
when youre driving on the freeway especially, the mountains are orange.
Scary sight at night.
It gives me chills.
Hopefully it'll stop soon and everything will be okay.
The air is gross.

2009-08-15T08:41:00.000-07:00

Wow am i obsessed or whhhattt!?
I listen to this song 24/7.
He's hot like fiyahhhhh.
Decided to get in touch with my korean side yes.

WATCH IT!
Click on play NOW before you even continue reading!
please please pleeeassee, promise you wont regret.

Cute as hell huh
tolddd ya.

Well..in the blink of an eye, summers almost passed.
Also, in the blink of both eyes, i've been here for nearly 2 years.
Crazy stuff.
I miss everyone.
I hope you guys still love me,
even though i seem so far awayyy
and we dont really talk anymore:[
Whatever happens, just know that i think of you guys pretty often.
i wont say all the time because thats just a lie hahaha.
But yeah, it is my fault afterall.
i Suck at keeping in touch.
its not that i dont want to.
i just suck, i wish i was better at it.
Im just an awkward person like that.
arrritee. i neeedd to doo some laundryy.
fml
Its like, i dont want to do it, AT ALL.
but i have to, otherwise what would i wear right.
hahhhah
the downside of being a girl.

Alrightyyyy. tooodless~
<3>

2009-07-14T01:09:00.000-07:00

Hi myself,
apparently no one visits this sad blog anymore.
Well myself, who do i have to blame but you, myself
because well obviously you stopped blogging.
Why would anyone still persistently visit
if they knew all they would be staring at would be the same bloody
page with the same bloody words.
It would be silly, i, you, myself wouldn't do it.

Anyway, i'll blog not in an attempt or revive this blog,
although im obviously secretly hoping it works,
but to pen down my reminiscent thoughts.
So i was digging through my box of stuff because i was looking for a passport picture i took
a year ago that i will probably be needing tomr for my college application.
Then , i found this worn out, folded like what 5 times into a small rectangular shape paper.
I peeled it opened and discover that it is this joke that i had Zatilah copy down for me
from a joke book we read in class during reading period instead of actual books. lol
But anyways, its the fart joke, im sure i've posted this on my blog about like at least five times
and its so old, its not funny anymore.
but im only writing about it because its soo full of memories.
Like seriously, as i read the oh so familiar but not quite joke,
pictures and flashbacks of the fourth floor light blue walled classroom came into a flurry.
I loved my seat. I was in the second row of the second column in class with Zatilah next to me.
It was like the best position.
I could still be in the eye of the teachers, not that it did anything,
and still have Meizhen to talk with just the slight turn of my back.
And all the sudden bursts of laughter in class with my seat partner that the class
and teachers were already used to and ignored.
Math class with Mr Wong was so unintentionally hilarious,
Mr wong is just an unintentionally funny person , and when he tries, not too much.
And Mrs Nambiar is just funny and cute because she's oblivious to things.
Ms Govind was evil, until graduation day.
Too much to list, too much to linger on.
Anyway, i'll never get over how much fun it was being a part of that class.
It was amazing.
This is probably happening because i found that sheet of paper at night while its all quiet and silent and i felt
the need to reminice and blog about it.

I did my nails at home because im sort of broke, not really
but i have to save for various other stuff like FOOD and food.
They're really gross though i have to say, NEVER get acrylic
they totally total your nail like totalling a car.
But i'll still get them from time to time just for the fun of it. lol
Yeah dont ever take my advice too so..
they're genuine but usually pretty dumb i'd say, or more so pointless.
Sometimes dangerous.
Better pointless than dangerous.

But whatever. im gonna sleep now.
ITs 1.34am and i have to get up at 5 to get ready for SMC
and drive about 25 miles, that would be around 30mins i'd say with early morning traffic.
That also means bad.
very bad.
So yeah, GOODNITEEEEE folks.
Thanks for reading not so much i know my blog.
peace

2009-07-09T14:47:00.001-07:00

I had a dream couple of days ago that i was back in Singapore for a visit.
Though i hate myself for procrastinating because i can't really remember it anymore.
WOW, FAIL
Anyway, basically what happened was i was visiting Singapore
and surprisingly everyone was still the same.
Yay, pleasant surprise.
Yeah..thats all i remember, i think it was the highlight of the dream.
Speaking of highlights, i tried to perform some on my hair a week ago.
But i didnt have a kit, so i just dyed my entire hair.
It wasn't light at all, so the next day i dyed it again.
Probably wasn't the best idea.
My hair hasn't all fallen off, its still pretty healthy actually.
But i remember when i got my haircut couple of weeks ago, the lady told me my hair was incredibly dry.
"how do you stop getting bored of your hair color?"
Im going to google this.

I do have more to write but its 3pm
and im still in bed so....
i think i need a shower.
LATEE

2009-06-24T23:47:00.000-07:00

Yes everyone, i am a high school graduate<3

Im taking my drivers license test tomr,
im fully prepared to fail.
Im honestly a bad driver.

There are sooo many movies coming outt.
i wanna watch them alll!
So i want to watch Up in 3D for sure, i heard it made a lot of people cry.
I heard The Hangovers hilarious, i read the plot and i REALLY want to watch it.
and then theres Drag me to hell, it has some pretty crazy reviews.
and the transformers of course just to watch megan fox
and public enemies just to watch johnny depp and
i really want to watch my sisters keeper too.
I watched the trailer and i bet you its a major tear jerker.

Anyways, i cant sleep even though im really tired.
I hate how this feels..
and oh yeah, i got a haircut today.

Pray for me that i pass the test,
cuz im gonna be needingg it for sure.
Bye!

2009-06-15T22:20:00.000-07:00

HEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
i have THREE MORE DAYS OF SCHOOL AND IM DONE.
So right now, im trying to work out
my after graduation party lifestyle.
LOLL why do i sound like a loser?
of course at the same time i am also doing my english
essay responses.
I have a D in that mffin class.
so i really cant afford to do bad in Mr Messal's class.
we got our yearbooks yay, but i never had time to take my yearbook picture
so im pretty bummed.
oh well.

Im also bummed because this year i wont be able to make it back
to Singapore/Msia.
Its official:(
I cant leave yet cuz my college applications arent done yet,
and also my family's too broke to get me a ticket back.
Always when i have time like this, (technically i dont really, im just procrastinating my work)
I think about what it would be like to go back and chill in freakin Singapore.
I <3 that place, cuz its so fuckin tiny!
When i tell people here i could go around the whole country in probably like a couple of
hours, they loook at me like im so cool.
haha.
anyway yeah, i really miss everyone there.
I remember the short period of time i had living by myself in singapore,
that was probably the BEST.
Goingg home wayy past midnight jsut chilling in mcdonalds with wati and wanshan and a bunch of other people.
That was the shitt.
I miss the singapore buses that take you everywhere.
their so clean, you guys should see the buses here.
FREAKIN ghetto as hell.
lol.
i miss the food, it drives me crazy.
I remember Rayan was supposed to take me around and to the food
expo if i went back this year:(
I want to meet up with ALL the woodlanders and visit WDL.
i wish i kept that ugly assembly tie. lol
or the collar badges omggggg that ALWAYS got me into trouble!
I want to visit the councillor room see what its like now.
I bet everyones just like over it already, im like
the only retard still brooding over all this..
ITS CUZ IM IN FUCKIN USA!
lol dont get me wrong though, i like it here.
I just miss it there. all the memories.
GEEZ I COULD GO ON FOREVER.
Like the MRT rides,
and bubbletea with jenn yokobu and sinying and grace and ah bahk,
4b reunions that i all totally missed out on,
karaoke trips with wanxuan,
and omg the drama and trouble we had at her house.
oh my, that still scares the shit out of me.
I hope her parents dont hate me:(
And the seven seestarsss.
Wheres Meizhen, wanshan, purni wanshan and wanxuan.
Like seriously, i sometimes talk to sherri and wani but the rest are like poof.
or is it just me?

Anyhoo, im graduating in three days,
You SHALL see somemore pictures again.
Im online browing to see if they're any cute dresses
for graduation and i need white shoes.
sighzz see ya'll latatatata.

2009-06-05T22:17:00.000-07:00

I know the music things retarded.
I can't be bothered to fix it just ignore it if you will please thank you.
umm yeah, so basically im graduating in .. 10 more school days.
I've been having senioritis since the start of the year so can you imagine
how bad it is now?
Well, i go to school third period almost everyday.
Yeap, i just miss first and second. i love it.
My moms so chill <3
Im taking my license test next thursday!

Mmmm...lets see.
Grad night on thursday!
OMG i canNOT wait!
Six flags fshoooo.
$40 it better be worth it.

Im broke. i have $5.00 in my debit card.
How pathetic is that.
I've REALLY never been this broke before:(

Anddd heres an interesting fact.
On average, people must ask me why i dont have a bf at least once a week.
Ok so i exaggerated but seriously i've had like 4 people ask me this month and thats just ridiculous.

Oh yeah its Grace's graduation tomr that lucky beyotch.
and i dont know what to wear.
shiet.

2009-06-02T21:50:00.000-07:00

There are actually a bunch more but i think this is good enough
and these are pretty much the only ones i can look at.
loll
if you want the uglyy ones get ya'lls asses on facebook haha.

2009-06-02T21:46:00.000-07:00

17 more days to graduation!
BOY AM I FCKINN GLADDDDDD!
hahahaha.

Prom just passed! if you want to see the pictures theyre on facebook.
Next is gradnite heh heh heh i cant wait.
I hink im taking my drivers license test this month.
Everythings happening soo fast it kinda feels weird but i love it ahah.
and i think we're moving my mom wants to move to studio city
its closer to santa monica i think and to LA where her church is and all that schtuff.
gah gah.
My laptops so weirdd i want to shoot it. sigh

Umm my blog is kinda deadd maybe i shud just post the pictures up here just cause.
yeahhh...i think i'll do that.

2009-05-21T02:33:00.000-07:00

Checking in to let you guys know im not dead yet.

Proms this saturday may 23rd
Senior ditch days this Friday may 22nd

See, i think i might've lived in singapore a little too long.
now i've unconsciously developed the kiasu trait.
So i went to nordtrom and i made three appointments at three different make up booths.
Smashbox, Shu Uemura and Chanel.
Grace is getting hers done at shu uemura and if they do a good job im going there,
if they dont im going to smashbox.
And Chanel messed up on my eye the last time for homecoming so yeah, idk why i made the appointment.
Am i not freakin kiasu?
And theyre all at 2.30 too LMAO.

I got my prom dress last Sunday from bcbg.
I'll definitely post some pictures up then.
Proms gonna be on a yacht this year:)
cant wait.
My dates Kenny. not that you guys know who he is. lol
Thats it im gonna work on my hw now.
ugh FML.
its like freakin 3.ooam now.
FML FML FML

2009-04-21T22:20:00.001-07:00

Sometimes all someone needs is encouragement or some
kind of recognition or praise for the effort they've put in or the results they've gained, however small or insignificant the two may be or seem to you, the outsider.
Granted, not everyone works the same way.
Im not really sure if i work better under pressure, or worse.
I really would like to find out though, it would be helpful.
I've tried looking back on past experiences and encounters but nothing really helped
because its not very constant.
But based on my self assessment of myself, i think i work better with no pressure.
Like i would probably procrastinate like crazy, but i wont break down and ultimately end up not ddoing anything AT ALL, you know?
Mostly when pressure i present, i perform horribly.
The worst kind for me is time limits.
I know that for sure.
I give up before i even start because i try to perfect what im doing and i look at the clock and
im like ok thats it. im not even gonna do this because i have like 2 mins left.
Yupp, but being the hardcore procrastinator that i am, i have to admit
i do occasionally need a gentle nudge. Just a gentle...
Anyway, the reason behind this pointless ranting is because my aunt Kate today
seemed to have noticed that i have lost some of my very surplus weight.
Which is actually surprising because i would think that i' wouldve gained like 2 pound from spring break because naturally all i did was eat.
Almost nearly literally. Sadly.
But yesss i would write some stuff about what i did for spring break
but i guess i just did.
Yeahsahh i told you i ate. lol
I seriously need pictures dont i?
Im so pathetic.
This BLOG is pathetic.
Honestly though, i dont really care if no ones reads this shit.
Its so pointlesss but i enjoy ranting.
to myself.
ok actually this is kinda sad.
I like people listening to me!
So guys....just pretend you guys read this.
Like occasionally visit my dull blog
and tag and be like, omg! you had such an interesting day!
Or be like umm....i think you made a grammar/ spelling/ vocab error in like..
line 2 of your 100th paragraph.
And i'll be like whoa! you read! Yay, here <3
K if you are still reading on at this point, honestly i think youre pretty dumb but i love you.
I mean it.
'Love is to share, mine is for you.'
Whoever you are.
Probably like some random bloghopper. Again, sadness penetrates me.
Hey i hope you trip and fall and your computer crashes.
Homework time chilllazxc

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2009-04-20T17:23:00.000-07:00

Oh my god, someone just please stab me.
The weathers killing me.
I liked it but now i dont as i am at home sweating like a cow.
Wonderful.
I might ditch school tomr to go thebeach with laura?
Its terribly hot and the sun is blazinggg.
Oh blazing, speaking of which today is april 20th..
It is zhong hoau's birthday ( i wished him happy birthday already how diligent)
I wonder if anyone still calls him that.
I remember he had to change his name to you hao or something. haha LOL much.
But people probably mostly call him lexson anyway.
I always thought it sounded like a name perfect for a car.
Anyway, it is also Hitlers birthday..hmm
and it is weed day so everyone have fun blazing LOL.
I have to catch a bus now more later chiillaaaxxx!

2009-04-03T01:40:00.000-07:00

Im so tired.
I just came back from volleyball and i actually cant sleep.
This is pretty amazing.
There are times where i honestly knock out before even being able to shower.
Yeah gross but shut up, dont act like you've never done it!
My head kinda hurts though, i havent taken my contacts out for like literally over a month.
I swear i am not exaggerating. But these are acuvue and they're really good.
Haha and im like only wearing one side of it because the other side tore and i think
thats whats making my head hurt.
Anyways, fret not people not that you care but
I just ordered some and they're soon to come.
Oh i got the Acuvue Oasys.
LOL remember jenn?
I think you gave me a sample once before and it was sooo incredibly comfortable.
I hate the fact that i have astigmatism.
I always have to order cuz they dont really have those in stores and im always having to wait.
Yeap thats my sad life.
Tomr's friday yayy.

Here's what im thinking of right now.

Im staaaarrrvingggg.
However, it is curretly 2am and consuming this would be a terrible sin.
Why,the thought of it just makes me shrudder.

2009-03-30T21:26:00.000-07:00

I didnt like what i saw.
Although, i honestly from the bottom of my heart know
theres no one else to put the blame on but myself.
At the same time i know that if i had a chance to do it all over again, i would
probably do the same thing,
not because i want to but because that's just who i am.
The person i am takes over who i try to be or want to be any day any moment.
I try to be more disciplined but i can't, im just wild and stubborn.
I try to be more matured and think further ahead, and i do in some senses,
but i don't in many ways.
But everyone just needs to give me time, because they don't realize
that as much as they feel bad or unsatisfied or disappointed in me,
i feel so much more worse than they could ever possibly imagine.
Ultimately everything that i do, i bear the consequences.
And they might feel affected,
but they're not even close, not even.
By telling me 'i told you so' isnt gonna help at all and if you do say that
i'll probably tell you to fuck off.
And don't comfort me because that'l make me cry.
If you dont do anything it might be better, but i might also take it as you dont care.
Dont ask me me what you should do then
cuz i'll get mad, and how would i know what you should do.
It seems to me it should come to you automatically what you should do,
but at the same time, i know whatever it is youre gonna do is not gonna work anyway.
So i dont know.
That how retarded i am.
Im a fool. But so are you.
We're so imperfect,
its annoying.

2009-03-27T21:45:00.000-07:00

EVERYTHING is pissing me off today.
You know what really annoys me?
When someone makes you mad, and you both know that youre mad.
But the offender acts really nice and pretends its all ok.
See that just makes it all worse.

Anyway yeah, i have to write a 1500 narrative essay.
I have absolutely no idea what to write on.
And yeah, today i've really learned what people mean when they say with a lie comes another lie, and another, and another.

2009-03-23T03:32:00.000-07:00

I still really wanna go to the beach.
Its started getting cold again tho:(
Right now, its 3.39am.
I just woke up cuz i was really thirsty.
I had a dream i was in school and i kept buying sodas and drinks but i was still extremely thirsty.
LOL Strange stuff strange stuff.
You know how sometimes you really have to pee when youre asleep
and you get those dreams where like you keep going to the bathroom
but you still constantly have to pee, like youre still 'omg urgent!'
LOL YEAH, same stuff.
How weird.

Anyway, you see im kinda down.
Im listening to all these songs and i happen to be on my rag.
SIGH, i wish my cramps would go away right this instance.
Just poof! i want to be a wizrd, yes a wizard.
I've BEEN wanting to be one since i read harry potter not gonna lie. lol
But twilight is weird, and no i dont want to be a vampire.
its almost exactly like the book zatilah and i used to read, how to marry a millionaire vampire.
I liked that book so i refuse to read twilight.
And we used to read this one book Trouble in Heels.
LOL and we were obsessed with the main character Roberto bartolinni or something.
HAHAH sounds like roberto cavali.
Anyway, he's supposed to be Italian so yeah..all the ili-ness.

Yeap, im just gonna keep the rest of my musings to myself
cuz im emo like that. lol
Byee.

Love is to share, mine is for you

2009-03-19T22:31:00.001-07:00

Omg omg omggg!
Volleyball was soooo goood today!
I want to play tomrrr someone needs to take me to the beach seriously.
I. WANT. BEACH. VOLLEYBALL. TOMR!
Cuz its friday:)
No party i just want volleyball at the beach with the sun and all that shiz nizz.
Yayyy its spring then it'l be summer then we graduate!
then it'll be beach volleyball erryday!

But you know what,
I dont think its gonna happen.
lol

I have SO MUCH shit to do.
I have to write a reflection tomr for english on Hamlet.
And then i have a chapter packet due tomr for physiology + a test/
Anddd...that about it i hope.
But its enough to last me the whole night trust me.
Boy, am i excited.

snap back to reality:(
Seeez yaaazz.

2009-03-16T21:07:00.000-07:00

What can i say?
It was great while it lasted and thats how it'll always stay.
No hard feelings.
Done with guilt-tripping, this actually makes me feel better in a way that i cant
quite explain.
oh wait whhhhat.
Is it just me or did that just sound like a rap?
lol well, it wasnt meant to be in case you misunderstand, it just turned out that way.
Psh maybe im just gifted.
haha.

This week was bore whore:(
I hate school i hate school i hate school so much homeworkkk.
Grace and i went shopping tho, but we were soooo tired
like while we were walking around the mall, our eyes were watering.
hahah.
I didnt buy anything for myself.
We got stuff for kenny's birthday from Urban.
<3 that place seriously.
Its so expensive tho, why cant we all just be rich.
Communism isnt actually that bad tho, if you think about it.
I mean the theorys great, we all share the wealth.
But i guess...reality doesnt really coincide with theories perfectly.
Thats why we experiment.
And wtf am i going on about.
lol oh but seriously guys are SUCH jerks like im not even kidding.
This guy asked me out on a date and i said no because
he's hella ugly tryna holla at me?
Nuh uh fool , you aint gettin any.
hahaha anyway i mean he was all nice before and now
he just dogs me all the time.
Whatta loser -.-
I hate how the world works.
Im gonna go eat and get fat now.
BYE

2009-03-10T21:18:00.000-07:00

Dont you HATE it when youre having a great dream and someone wakes you up?
or if u just randomly wake up by yourself? which is worse because you have no one to blame.
I do, and i freakin hate it.

Anyways, my dads leaving tomr:(
Flying off to Korea and then back to Malaysia.
Its Friday the 13th, not exactly a great day to take off i would say.

I made a new bank account today.
Under Bank of America.
I got to choose my card design so i chose thisIt looks better in person i mean card.
And whats soo cool is everytime i make a purchase with this card
they donate money to the needy.
Nice:D
I think it makes more sense than gettting cards like this Ok Hello Kitty, seriously?
First of all, its not even pretty; secondly, they're not there for a cause, literally.
But the first thought i had was about how philoe would
probably go crazy over this.
They even have cheque books in this. *rolls eye hard*
I never really understood the whole hello kitty craze.
I mean..WHY?
Rmb there was this period of time where McDonalds was selling
hello kitty stuffed toys and everyone went beserk and would get to mcdonalds everyday even before dawn to get in line.
And eventually stomp on each other to death.
..WHY??
Maybe its just me.
I dont think its cute, honestly look at Garfield.
At least it looks like a cat.
And its actually a character, they have a comic based on it.
Whereas Hello Kitty..
Even the name..just pisses me off.
But yeah...i guess you can say its an icon. kinda.
Idk what but some kind of icon.
I wish i was that lucky and could earn so much like that.
I'd draw something that looks
somewhat or less like say maybe an anteater,
colour it in pink and name it hello ant eater.
Then make calculators and pilows and lunch boxes with my pink hello ant-eaters
all over it and make awesome loads of money.
I want that to happen to me too! How come i nvr get so lucky!
I hate cats, they're so creepy.
And also psycho people are known to adore cats.
Any linkage i wondder..

2009-03-03T20:51:00.000-08:00

Bow wow's so cute, why cant Grace Mun agree with me??
We can never agree on guys, its actually quite sad.

Its been school home, school home this past week.
We have no school on friday! oh i dont grace does.
We were supposed to take our permit test, but
once more we procrastinate, but this time with valid reason, kinda.
Wait we always did have valid reasons.
Well anyway this time Grace has a parrty to go to
and i have a family dinner since my dads over.
But things aren't really going along too well it seems.
Hmm...
Anyhoo,
i cant wait till spring break.
It'l be a blast, hopefully:D

Right now, i should be doing my homework.
I hate homework, i sound like an 8th grader but unfortunately i really do hate homework...
I got my paycheck but im broke again.
How does this work exactly?
HOW?
Well i gave my mom 50 cuz i owe her like infinity for the phone bill,
and i watched a movie, ate pho, bought coffeebean thats it.
I hate the world, why do we have money.
i wish we survived on seashells or like strands of hair once more.

2009-02-27T11:47:00.000-08:00

This might sound really retarded but i look at my blog 24/7 now
Its so prettyyyy and i love how its so alive now.
Its all white and and picturey.
Before it was like freakin black and pictureless.
LOL
awwww..its such a pretty page.
K just felt like i had to say this.
buhbye

2009-02-26T22:25:00.000-08:00

Couple of days ago, i watched Confessions of a Shopaholic with grace and amy.
I was kinda disappointed. i guess i was expecting a lot because i read the book.
But i love Isla Fisher i think she's sooo prettyyyy.
And yeah watching the movie reminded me of wanxuan.
We were soo obsessed with the book for a while. haha

Bt the book is definitely wayyyy better.
&I REALLY want to watch He's just not that into you.

I heard its soooo good.
and they have such a cute cast. kinda.
I need my paycheck desperately.

2009-02-26T00:28:00.001-08:00

Ok first up, i should apologize to everyone or anyone who uses internet explorer
and has visited my blog.
I had no idea at all that it said ' fuck bitch' at the bottom of the page
because i use mozilla firefox and we dont get that:/
My bad i seriously had to idea at all:(
Secondly im so proud of myself, i took literally 2 mins to change my blogskin this time.
I told myself to go on blogskins.com and get the skin of the day, whatever it is.
Fortunate for me, it was pretty and i like it.
Except i probably have to edit a lot of stuff, all i did was copy and paste it
and add the tagboard.
I should add some music too.

Ummm...what else.
Oh yeah, so dont read the profile stuff.
Its not me-.-
Its the original writings.
anywayy byee<3
yess im soo asian today even the way im writing and all the faces.

All I do is lay around, two ears full of tears
From looking at your face on the wall
Just a week ago you were my baby
Now I don't even know you at all, I don't know you at all
Well, I wish that you would call me right now
So that I could get through to you somehow
But I guess it's safe to say, baby, safe to say
That I'm officially missing you
Ooh, can't nobody do it like you
Said every little thing you do, hey, baby
Said it stays on my mind
And I'm officially
Well, I thought I could just get over you, baby
But I see that's something I just can't do
From the way you would hold me
To the sweet things you told me
I just can't find a way to let go of you

Its official.

2009-02-25T23:59:00.000-08:00

Seriously, why do people never realize what they've lost till they actually lose it.
Like before, i never used to care about my eraser but now i cant find it and
i really need it and i've come to realize its significant value . i cant continue with my math homework.
Which actually ultimately isn't even a bad thing at all is it..
Well yeah i hate homework.
I bombed English test couple days ago, and i turned in a crappy reflection today.
Had no idea it was worth 100points so i hastily did it during lunch at the library.
Im pretty sure i have a D in that class.

2009-02-21T12:10:00.000-08:00

Ummmmmmm yeahhhhh....

Omaga, someone change my layout please.
It makes me sick.
But anyway, there are some more important stuff for me to go on about.
I cant wait to freakin graduate!
I need to get out of CV.
I doubt i'll miss it that much.
I havent applied for college/universities and deadlines are over.
Yeah well, my mom said i can skip a year.
Im just gonna be doing my own stuff for a year then apply to college.
I can not wait.
Its gonna be crazy.
I might be able to move out, but as much as i really want to,
at the same time i feel like i should stay with my parents cuz
i know i do need someone to occasionally control me a little bit.
I obviously want to be free but um..i dont know if too much freedom is good for someone like me.
Especially if i move in with grace mun.
Cuz right now the only thing thats stopping me is ..
my parents being around me.
If they're not i dont know whats gonna be of me.
lol
I make it sound so serious but it really isnt haha.
OR maybe it is.
It is serious, but is it really serious? LOL omg everyone should watch mighty boosh.
I cracked up watching that episode i stil remember it clearly.
Anyway we're reading Hamlet in english right now and mr messals been gone for
3 days we've been having subs and its bomb.
Love it class is fun.
I loveee 6th period.

This is one long ass post.

Hmm...theres a bad news tho.
I might have some problems going back to Singapore cuz of my visa.
It still depends idk. We'll see.
I have my fingers crossed:/

Hmm..lets see..what elseee...
I havent done my nails in the longest time.
I mean i do it myself now im so broke.
My phone bill went over again $375
and i told my mom i'd pay her back.
Sigh, i need to tame my pride sometimes.
But whatever, i dont need her constantly reminding me of this later.

MMMMMMmm, thats it.
I got my cartilage and third piercing cuz i was bored
with my current ones.
If felt good, the gun going thru my ear.
I want more.
Oh my god, so i borrowed this book from my friend called crank.
Yeah THAT crank and it was pretty sickly written.
lol and she has a sequel Glass, and i heard its pretty sick too.
I dont know. i've been so eh to reading books these days.
I used to love them didnt i?
Yeah i did.
haha woww im sooo rhectorical.

Yeah this is more like a self blogging thing
I doubt anyone would read this far.
Cuz i dont think i would.
Well, it really depends on the post.
And if i read one that went on like mine i'd probably stop
Whatever, im bored and im just musing.

wow wowowowowo i just had the biggest breakfast.

Have i changed?
I really dont think so.
But most times people dont realize they have.
But i really dont think i have, even if i wouldnt know, cuz i think i would know.
Idk..
I mean to be quite honest, i may have changed?
but to more of my real self, you know.
Like i remember back in the days i had to be more cautious about everything
because everyone was so judgemental and single-opinionated even though i grew up
in a pretty..idk liberal? enviroment.
And not everyone i knew was cool about stuff i believed in.
And im not about to write them about because i think i might be stuck here for too long
and i want to go out soon.
lol i need to take a shower.

Oh i tore my last left contact so now i can
only see right thru my right eye.
I have to get someee/

oh my god this is one long ass post.
BYEEEE.

2009-02-13T22:29:00.000-08:00

HEYY GUYS.
Its valentines day tomr.
Sadly no, i do not have a date.
Neither does Grace Mun, so we're just gonna hang out. lol
We're such single girls.
But yeah, im liking it.
I dont think i want a relationship yet. lol

2009-02-12T12:52:00.000-08:00

I've been sleeping with my contacts on for almost 3 weeks now..
Do you think i'll die soon?
I forget every single night.
Or when i tell myself i will later,
i never fail to fall asleep first.
Its amazing.
This is getting pretty bad,i feel like they're melting and dissolving away in my eye.
Anyway, i skipped school today.
I told my mom i was too tired.
Which is in fact true.
I really am quite tired.
Well to the very few people reading my blog,
have a fantabulous day!

**no! Nicollette Sheridan is leaving desperate housewives!

2009-02-08T20:49:00.000-08:00

Its true! Blink 182's back togethaa.

Im listening to Crazy by Aerosmith..
I love it.
Sigh omg i hate it they make you miss people.
And i miss you.

Anyway, im so depressed right now.
I ate soo much i want to gaggg.
or make myself gag.
Tomr tho, is gonna be a fun day and i cannot wait.
- x

2009-02-04T23:36:00.000-08:00

Oh yeah, i had to come back to reply to
the sweet little thoughtful tags.
Thank you all for the birthday wishes:)
I appreciate it even though i am not thanking everyone individually.
But i really do..it seriously warmed my heart reading those.

Tabie, thank you. and youre gonna come over soon arent you?
Philoe, email me! why have we stopped??):
Jenn, not i dont want to update! my computer broke down for a while. lol i miss you girl!
Lexson, Why are you going away for a while? And thank you, youre always remembered too:D
J.O, i hate being old. i actually thought i'd be 17 forever. stop rubbing it in my face minor. LOL
Xuan , Shan, Passerby, Cs, sinying, hao jie, thanks a bunch for the birthday tags!
NITE FOR REALSSSS

2009-02-04T22:57:00.000-08:00

HEYYYY.
I've been kinda busy.
New semesters started and we're already getting like shitload of homework!
Anyway, my dads here to visit and i think he'll be here for a couple more weeks?
And today he mentioned my old friends in malaysia/ singapore who i am beginning to think
they think they are forgotten.
Which is not true at all. please seriously dont think that.
I would take any opportunity right now to go over and visit.
He even talked about my exbf!
How interesting and funny because i dont think he knows what he think he knows.
Lol.

Anyhoo, i had a birthday party at my house.
It was fun.
I have like videos of paul and kenny rapping and shit but i dont know if i want to post them
up its like beep beep beep all the way.
But yeah 'its r.a.p you know how it is' - *totally rolls eye*
And i think they said not to or something but i might, on facebook.
We got Hypnotic and Malibu they were soo expensive i spent like $45 on those.
And had to get Aaron to get some beer because OBVIOUSLY it was not enough.
Grace got soo effed up it was funny.
She kept saying she was sleepy.
I was just buzzed laura helped clean the house and stuff and i really appreciate that.
And i got cute gifts.
Grace Mun was planning to give me 18 small gifts cuz it was my 18th
but she said she failed and gave me 14 or something.
But f that, i loved all the gifts!
I have an awesome new wallet, a hand lotion i've been wanting
a scarf, earrings, leopard print thongsLOL and etc and etc.
All in a Urban box.
Yes defo one of the cool parts of the gifts.

Schools getting busier.
Odd, because its second semester and really, seniors should be given a break.
Hyun tells me today May is gonna be a crazy month because its his bday, roy's bdae,
simons bdae and prom.
Yeah it'll be pretty crazy and very exciting.
I cant wait to graduate from CV.
Its so retarded i dont really consider this graduation because technically i HAVE graduated
already and i consider woodlands sec like my ONLY high school because it was soo fun
and i have soo much memories there.
Yeah..its true lah..
Nothing can compare to those times seriously.
Blue uniform ftw.
Tacky but hey,
there will be a point, or a few even in life where you'll have to do stuff you really
dont want to.
Yes i have decided to be a nun.
ahah completely joking.

Well its 11.31 now and i have tons of homework to do.
So ima sign off.
Goodnighty my friends.
I miss you all so..
I mean, ok theres no denying i am having a fun time here.
You know i cant be sulking in one corner sobbing about how sad my life is and how i want my old life back right?
Yeah but just know that you guys are always at the back of my mind..
wandering like lost souls but not really.
Good nitey!

2009-01-18T09:16:00.000-08:00

Hey guys.
I have a three day weekend and its awesome tawsome.
Well actually not really.
I was pretty much at ce'fiore the whole day yesterday.
I have work in about 2 hours.
I really need to pee cuz i just woke up.
My nails are chipping uglyly.
My face is deformed and swollen. sigh
Anyway bong suk came to ce'fiore yesterday.
And masher was there.
he was hungry so we went to eat after i ended work.
Yeah he got into a huge accident.
It was bad i thought he died when i saw his pictures on facebook.
I think everyone did until i read the title of his album and it said" the day i shudve died"
LOL emo much.
And also he wouldnt be able to post pictures thru his a/c if he was dead.
yeah its already sunday tho im sooo glad i dont have school tomr.
I have smth planned for my birthday i cant waiiiitt.
Oh and i got a birthday card from Philoe!
It was really pretty:)
haha thanks girl, i loved it and i miss you mucho!!
Yeah thats it ima go pee lol.

2009-01-13T01:15:00.000-08:00

This was funny.
This is one side of my God family right here,
God knows how many sides i have.
I've known them all since like..FIVE.
Yes i feel mighty left out and like bawling.
Them having like sleepovers and little gatherings while i sit here and blog.
Blogging like what all friendless people do.
That's what little j.o thinks.
yeah little j.o because she happens to be the youngest one of us all.

anyway shit im so hungry you wouldnt even understand.
Its like 1.27am now and i shud probably go to sleep.
But then again its banking day tomr and school starts at 9!
I have to sleep im just too hungry to be awake.
Nightszxc tooodlies.

2009-01-11T10:07:00.000-08:00

OH M GEE, Vanessa Chin Lee Min got herself a new guy.
Some guy called Chuean Yang.
Now honestly... Chuean Yang?
That name just makes me so....curious.
J.o said he was pretty good looking i wanna see him, i mean i have to see him.
Its not fair they both got to see my bf then and i never got to see ANY of theirs.
I always thought smth would happen between her and this guy called Derek that i never
actually knew but yeah geez vanessa thnx a lot for telling me.
I'd like to see more effort coming from you young lady.

Omg this is great two posts in a day.
Four posts straight up in a week.
This is great im so cool and blogging.

2009-01-11T09:48:00.000-08:00

Oooh, so i hear o lvl results are coming out tomorrow!
Honestly, i can feel the excitement from an ocean away.
or is it two idk.
Anyway the point is im so excited for you guys, the juniors and obviously people like Jenn and Grace and Sinying and all the sec 5ers.
I hope you guys get the grades you wanted;D
wowmg, i cant believe this is happening.
We're so growing up.
Beer pong anyoone? my head swirls.

2009-01-11T00:11:00.000-08:00

NOOOOOO my birthday falls on finalsszxcbnvcgfd.
This is shit.

2009-01-10T10:45:00.000-08:00

Its Saturday morning finally.
We were gonna go to Sunset Boulevard last night to get Korean Tacos
but we couldnt find a ride.
Seriously this is so sad.
But hey, i'm taking the license test soon i think.
And im gonna make dad get me a car.
You know what i REALLY want?
I want a volkswagen passat with leather interior.
Of course that not my dream car i want an audi but not right now
because i know im bound to crash.
Andyways, my dad'll be arriving here in the morning of my brithday.
Yeah whatta gift huh, but obviously thats not enough.

Car! car!

OH yeah so if u guys have stuff to give me like my birthday present from LAST YEAR may i emphasize, please give'em to my dad.
He leaves on the 20th.
This is such an ad i love it.
OH yeah Jenn i didnt lie i wrote the card but i dont have your address! lol.